separated...

♪♪" I know we had some good times
It's sad but now we gotta say goodbye
you know I love you, I can't deny
I can't say we didn't try to make it work
for you and I
I know it hurts so much
but it's best for us
Somewhere along this windy road
we lost the trust
So I'll walk away
so you don't have to see me cry
It's killing me so,
why don't you go
So why don't you go your way
And I'll go mine
Live your life, and I'll live mine
Baby you'll do well,
and I'll be fine
Cause we're better off,
separated..."♪♪

"its not the length of time my love its how u connect, with love theres no time frame, it can be long and it can be short, with 2 people falling in love time just stands still."

letting go...

its hard to lose a loved one....no matter how it happened...whether by divine intervention, or losing that person to somebody else,these feelings are present...emptiness,numbness,never ending sadness...though the latter is rather more painful coz it comes with betrayal,unfulfilled dreams and promises, and a broken heart. But come to think of it, sometimes one has to experience all these emotions to come out as a better and stronger person. After all, the world doesnt start and end with that one person,he/she must not be the be-all and end-all of the other's existence...what one has to do is stand up from the mistakes,learn from them and be wise in dealing with any relationship the next time...some says it's holding on that makes you strong, sometimes it's letting go.. remember, there is always a rainbow after the rain....

they say in life...

one could only find the magic of love once...
the magic that turns a brittle glass into a strong one...
the magic thateven death could never take away...
the magic that sees thru the lies and pretensions...
the magic that could bear every possible horror and weakness...
the magic that could stop every tear that falls...

only this ONE LOVE would 4ever be
the last love you'd see
seconds before you sleep...
only this ONE LOVE ...
will make you fight!

is it love?

before you say you're in love,
ask yourself why you love that other person
if you can give reasons,
then quit!
you're not really in love...
you might just be in love
with the idea of LOVE....

bitterness...

doesn't mean you hate falling in love,
it's just being wise and careful
so that your heart won't be used
and torn apart again...

sweet dreams...

you may be sleeping all alone tonight...
but believe in the magic that someday,
someone is meant to sleep beside you ...
your love, your life!

just a thought

"sometimes you have to make a big mistake to figure out how to make things right...
mistakes are painful but they're the only way to find out what matters most."

words aren't enough

there's a special level of comfort
between two matchin' souls
an unbreakable bond
of constantsupport and closeness...i

t's when a warm embrace
feels so right,
a feeling that's hard to define
but easy to recognize

and when you find that comfort
you just know
you'll never let go...

words aren't enough

there's a special level of comfort
between two matchin' souls
an unbreakable bond
of constantsupport and closeness...i

t's when a warm embrace
feels so right,
a feeling that's hard to define
but easy to recognize

and when you find that comfort
you just know
you'll never let go...

the only people...

..that you need in your life
are the ones who prove
that they need you in theirs...

there are days when ...

i just get so fed up
that i justwanna run
run as fast as i could

as far
as where my feet
would take me

but u know what scares me
and keeps me from doing so?

it's when i look back
and see you
so far away
from me...

lies...

The most hurtful kind of lie
is the one delivered
by the people
youcare about the most

It makes you doubt
everything you know
and makes you wonder
why you still care so much

and worst of all,
it puts you in a position
of deciding whether
to tell them
you know they're lying
or act
like you're too dumb
to know the truth

Next time you lie to someone
who cares about you so much,
keep this in mind,
because most often than not,
they know...
and it hurts a lot.

a love story

today marks a month-long bliss
days full of love and special mem'ries
thanks for the good times,
won't think of the bad

all of them i'd always cherish & won't be sad...

no warnings,
no signs
not even goodbyes
and though it brings tears into my eyes

i know someday,all of these will be fine
the wind that blows the dove
is the wind that blows my love
i'd keep on praying from up above
to always guide and bless you, my love...

let's stop for awhile...

world stopped spinnin'
clock stopped tickin'
mind stopped thinkin'
heart stopped beatin'...

for a moment there
everything stood still
a perfect way to celebrate
our very special day...

yesterday

sometimes, you can't stop yourself
from hoping for yesterday to comeback,
especially when yesterday
was the only future you ever wanted
and needed from the start...

absence

in love, you have to expect absence at some point
but that doesnt mean an end..
all you have to do is to wait for the time,
give the person space because true love is proved
when the person has seen the best people in the world,
but still turns back to where you are,
reaches for your hand
and chooses you above
the world's best...

our firsts...

first chat
first smile
first text
first call
first laugh
first teardrop
first time we fell in love...
i miss 'em all...
i miss you...

confused mind, weary heart...restless soul

is it a change of heart?
something ive said or done?
things that could've been?
your fault or mine?

questions in my mind
answers i hope to find
i wonder when,where,how
wishing you'd hear this somehow...

again...

same tears
same pain
same confusion
same question......

why?

it's going to happen...

" forget about all the reasons why something may not work,
you only need to find one good reason why it will..."

In life...

...we always search for answers because we want to prove to ourselves that we made the right decisions. But the truth is, we can't search for what is not there. Things happen because they're meant to happen. That's why we forgive people even if they hurt us, we love people even if they dont love us back, and we smile despite every painful crash in our hearts. At the end of the day, the lessons you learned are the answers to your questions.

some people..

...have to leave you alone because they thought you don't need them at all. But what they don't know is, when they leave, they leave you broken and incomplete. They assume things as if they're the only thinkin' person, what they never realized is that they're part of your existence..( a happy one, i mean )...when everything's too late, all you can wish is to have them back but then, at the end of everyday that passes by, they're gone and have already faded away...

i miss you...

gone forever and faded away
someone whom i once knew
someone i knew and hoped for
all i have left to say is nothin'
but my goodbye,
i'll miss you...

why its hard to let go

you don't wanna let go
coz you "feel"
that there's still somethin
goin on between the two of you

somethin' beyond words
that only your heart understands
you wait...and wait...
but still, nothin's happening

the problem is:
you just can't walk away...
but you can't stay either.

you're a hero

sometimes you have to stop
waiting for someone to come along
and fix what's wrong...

maybe you have to stop
feeling sorry for yourself
and realize that no one else
has the answer...

sometimesyou just have to be
YOUR OWN HERO!...

i had let go...

of what i thought was for me
it hurts, yes
a lot actually...

but gettin' through each day
made me realize
that the world
will just keep on turnin'

and so should I...

they say that...

if you felt real love and lost it,
you'll never be able to smile
I'm not sure if that is true...
I can still smile,yes
but it really hurts.

i don't know...

i still love him
and i don't know how to stop...

i need him
and i don't knowif i could stop...

i miss him
and i don't knowwhen to stop...

he loved me
and i don't knowwhy he stopped.

a lot of times..

we think we're part of someone's life
we share things wih them,
spend time with them
and gather good memories with them...

then suddenly,
they'll show us that no matter
how much we want them to be part of us,

it just can not happen
inspite of what we've been through together
we'll realize that we're still strangers
as we always have been...

the hardest part of saying goodbye is...

not the feeling of letting go
not the part of saying goodbye
but going through every single day
and having to remember it...

it's never the tears that measure the pain
sometimes, it's the smile we fake
just to show others we're ok...

if i cud, i wud...

sometimes i wish i could fast-forward time
just to see if in the end,
it's all worth it...

morning blues...

there's a tight knot in my heart
as i read those lines
i've hoped and i've prayed
but then again,with tears
i found myself blinded...

it's painful to keep on hoping...

...for someone you know you won't have forever
but it's a lot painful if they make you stay
and make you believe on something
that will never be your reality...

i miss the days...

when tying my shoe was the hardest thing i had to do...
now,it's learning how to
when everything inside me
wants to cry...

indeed

realities do bite
sometimes too hard
u don't know how to fight...

is it worth the wait?

it's next to impossible to find someone
who'll never make you cry,
so get the next best thing...
find someone who's worth all the pain...

there are so many things...

that sometimes we don't have to admit or ask
as long as u feel it no need to question it
because...
"tongues may deny,but hearts don't lie."

the person...

...who truly understands youbwill see the pain embedded in your eyes even when you're smiling...

let's try to...

try to live life with the least "im sorry's"...
that means thinking before saying
or doin' anything

it's always better
not to hurt anyone
than apologize
after you've hurt them...

remember...

when we talked about death...
that's exactly...
how im feeling right now...
i feel like i'm dying...
slowly...

i wish...

i cud cry...
i wish
i cud shout...
i wish
i cud escape from this pain...

why, oh whydoes it have to happen once again???

neverending pain...

your silence is deafening
like a sharp knife cutting
it's going to be an endless night
i just hope morning will still be in sight...

was i fooled?

it's been a roller-coaster ride
and now it makes me wonder why
is it fair to play with my heart
is it what you've planned from the start?

how can you do this? how...

can u pick me up from my fallonly to let me go when i can barely stand tall?

nightmare

last night i had a dream
a very bad one it seemed
u were there walking away
i was here begging you to stay

if this is all an act
perhaps there's no reason to be sad
but reality is telling me its not
and my dream,this morning is a fact

haayyy....

i can only heave a sigh
teardrops had gone dry
can't even blink an eye
i'm so drained for another cry...

i wish it could be that easy
to forget all and be happy
just a few days from yesterday
not even a clue, u'd go ur way...

how do i start again...

where do i begin
with this numbness from within

there's nowhere to go
someone had to let it go

they say its hard to leave
i say its harder to believe

that the one being left behind
hasn't been in his heart and mind

all alone..

...in a room, silent and still
no drop of rain,
no whisper from the wind
just me and the room
with silence that envelops this darkness...

thoughts haunt me from the past,
bringin' back every pain
how can mem'ries last?
when at its end its no gain?

tears fall from this sweet li'l eyes
a drop of terror, a drop of shame,
a drop of pain,blood starts to clot
from the heart that has been bleeding...

my humanity almost started to rot
when life gave me no meaning...
...i know someone strong enough would save me
so that i can break free from the chains
that continue to bind me...

i should listen to myself..

it's easy to give advice
what's hard is making them see
that you can actually do what you preach...
coz you can speak for others,
sadly,not for your own...

there are the people...

who keep what they feel ...they still smile even though it hurts
no matter how much they pretend to be fine
even if they're not
they seem to be strong
even if inside they are almost melting
you know whats hard to say at this moment?
i cant find my old self, who could actually do that
i wish i cud still be one of them
i wish i cud put on a mask again
and stop being so transparent
but i can't...
i just can't...

i have..

... watched the sun set
and i've witnessed it rise

love is often like that

i've loved
and i've been hurt

i've seen cruel break-ups
and i've been in one of those
and what hurts the most
is looking at something slipping away
without fully understanding
the reason why...

i wish

... i could throw all the questions in my mind
because i'd rather have a pierced heart
caused by answers i wish i never had
rather than a sulken mind caused by confusion...

a rest for my weary heart...

my love's been pure, it has been true
i had been myself, you can all see through
i have waited so patiently, for a time 'been made happy
but now i want to rest, be quiet and suffer in silence...

lovin someone...

...who can't love you back
is like bein comatosed
havin' a 50/50 chance....
comfortably lyin'
but unconsciously bleedin'...
softly sleepin'
but silently hurtin'...
continously breathin'
yet, slowly dyin'...

today...

is the day, i'd always remember
the day i gave my heart away
the day i thought would be forever
maybe it's really not meant to stay that way...

we've always known what hurts still, we haven't learned to stay away from such...coz as painful at it is, if it's the only way to feel their presence, we always give in...we still check on them every now and then, just to see what's been happening since they left...that even if sometimes we say, " i just wanna see him happy "...deep in our hearts, there's this flicker of hope so then it's true, that the more you think you are healin', the deeper the wound is searin'....

destiny no more...

it is not "destiny" that determines love,it is "choice"...relationships last long not because they're destined to last long...relationships do last long because two brave people made a choice -to keep it, fight for it and to work for it. Meanwhile, some relationships fail not because they're destined to fail...they failed because one of the two,or both, made the choice -to set each other free...

people...

always think that the most painful thing in life is losing the one you love
the truth is,the most painful thing is losing YOURSELF
in the process of loving someone TOO MUCH...
forgetting that YOU, are special too....

i just knew it...

i've read 'em over and over again
the inevitable has just happened
i knew i had reasons to be scared
i wished u've been honest back then...

moment of truth

the reality of waking up alone
strikes the innermost part of my being
entangled thoughts of despair creep in my soul
and unknowingly, half of me is dying...

will there be an end to all these?

everyday feels like something's piercing my soul
a daily discovery of things never been told
i wonder if there is an end for all these pains
put a halt to all sufferings, bring back my old self again...

a step forward...

i've laughed and i've cried
i've smiled and been sad
i've hoped and i've lost
i've loved, now, i've no choice...
but to forget the bad times
and treasure all the good times
the lessons i've learned
the experience i've gained...
these are all worth remembering
at last,the suffering meets its ending...

i'll be ok

a lot of times i've stumbled and fall
in the "game of love", that's what they call
here i am, picking up the pieces once more
hoping someday, i'd be fine, standing tall...

wasted....

you need to be deaf for the sake of somebody
you need to be insensitive to lessen the pain
you need to smile for the strength of others
and sometimes you just need to stop
coz you're tired of everything...

" a lot of us have built dreams with people we hoped would be wih us forever...only to wake up to realitythat nothin's permanent in this worldlove comes and goespeople stay and leavelife is a constant cycleof finding and losingof making and breakingof dying and living again...that's why we should love them rightfor we may never tell...we might wake up one dayrealizing that we already lostthe people we ought to protect and love."

something i just heard...

♪♪...and theres a danger in loving somebody too muchand its sad when you know its your heart you can't trust..♪♪♪theres a reason why people don't stay where they are...♪♪cause baby sometimes love just aint enough♪baby sometimes love, just aint enough...♪♪

my angel has..

told me that to prove my lovei shouldn't say it, i should do it...then i told her," i already did..."she asked me how,and I answered," i let go.."

i thought

that it might be nice to forget everything. However, because there's a past, there will be a future. Because there are memories, we're excited about tomorrow. If there ios no past, then we may say 'tomorrow' but that's just time passing. Whether painful or heavy, we have to carry the past with us. Even if it takes time, we can make it through. That's how we are made...

u just thot u did...

sometimes you feel like you're done with waiting and holding on, and that you're finally readyto bravely face the world alone...but its amazing how feelings are gone one moment & later on they betray youwith just a simple thing that u rememberthen you find yourself thinking of the way you used to smileeven if up to now, ur completely clueless why...and then the hurt comes back all over again, and then realization hits youu didnt let go...u just thought you did...

you gotta think twice

if things appear too-good-to-be-true,
brace yourself,
most often than not,
it's bound to make you cry...

some people say...

it's so lonely to be alone

but i say,

"i'd rather be alone and lonely,
than be with someone
who makes me feel alone & lonely.."

goodbye...

if it's taking all your strength...
if its killing your heart...
if it's making you bear too much pain...
and it's making you ignore everything else...
make sure it's worth it...
otherwise,
let it go...

trust nothing

ive been hurt,
i've been a fool
to once again
let my heart rule

now i know,
as i stand still
there's nothing to trust
but my gut-feel...

foolish heart

i was blinded
better judgment's been clouded
was i tricked or mislead?
it's my heart, i shudn't have trusted...

it hurts when you lost someone important to you....but i believe that no one loses someone coz no one owns anyone, thats the true essence of freedom...having the most important thing in the world without owning it

darkness engulfed me
as u step out and walk away
dreams we've built slowly fade away
as u go and find your way

in silence i wept
the pain in my heart i kept
now as i find myself to sleep
i see those dreams,
forever i shall keep

i love u...

past my mind,
beyond my heart...
i love you with my soul,
and that's the space,
where you will
forever dwell...

forever...

i saw you standing
at the doorway waving
i thought i heard you saying
"till we meet again, my darling"

tears rolled down my cheeks
coz that made me sad and sick
i know that line isn't true
forever, i won't be seein' you

i opened my eyes
and finally realized
its a dream once again
will there never be an end?

fill in the blanks...

wide awake, facing a blank wall

standing tall not anymore

with a blank face, i stare

wond'ring what's left to share...

all lights went out am still up and about

its gonna be a long night

tomorrow will soon be in sight...

balloons...

special people in our lives are like balloons...

once you let them go, you will never get them back...

so I'm gonna tie you to my heart,so I never lose you...

darkness engulfs me...

i wish my blog would swallow me whole; away from cobwebs and this black hole...

its my sanctuary, my place of retreat; where i could always hide at times of defeat...

i've messed up bigtime, now i know; sleep at night, i seem to borrow...

i'm in deep trouble, in pure sorrow; don't know how to face another tomorrow...

why is it that if something goes right; another side turns gray and again u fall flat...

why can't it be that for once in my life; everything finds its proper place and be alright...

i'm so confused, don't know what to do; i need someone, i could really talk to...

i am so afraid, too damned scared; now's the time, i badly need a friend!